Time really slips away.

It's
been years since I last wrote. I'm feeling inclined to write today
because I actually had to find my way back in order to unearth an old
entry for work purposes. It was a pretty poorly written entry and I
actually had to send it to a man who is probably the fiercest writer and
editor in the entire world. I told him not to judge me. I hope he took
me at my word. I'm a better writer than evidenced in what I had to send
him. At least I think I am.
Anyway, so much has
happened in the time away from here. I would love to say I am
recommitting myself to writing. Frankly, I would love to be able to. I
just don't trust my life or my job to allowing me to do that.
I'm
still working for the same company. I'm still working for the same
boss. But things have changed in the last year or so. The department's
focus has shifted and my teammate and I have worked hard to keep our
focus in what we do, but feel somewhat at-sea over things. I feel pulled
and pushed and often asked to do things that I just don't feel like I
have skill for or interest in. I always wanted to at least be interested
in my work. Not always the case these days, but it brings in a paycheck
and I guess that is what it's all about. More about work another time.
Our
Soldier has been gone now for more than 2 years. God willing he will
come home this summer and pick up where he left off with school. It was
hard when he left. It got easier. Not perfect, but easier. The dh and I
did get out to see him last May for about 24 hrs and he has been home a
few times this year on leave. What a blessing. One of my favorite
pictures is this one:
We were on the beach in Monterey or there
abouts and had just stuck our tongues out at my husband while he took a
picture and he yelled, "You ruined that one!" Of course we laughed. He
got that picture and it's my favorite.

Anyway
... now, as the time winds down in his training cycle, it feels harder
again to have him that far away. He's calling almost daily now. We share
what's new.
"Nothing going on here."
"Just a normal day here."

He
talks to his brothers and sister when she's here. It's all good. But
I'm ready to have him home. I sent a 17 year old off to Basic Training
and am going to get back a 20 year old man who's learned to shoot an
A-16, obtain skills for his job, and learned a foreign language. He's been home about 5
weeks total over the last 2+ years, but when we've seen him, he seems
like himself. Changed and older in some ways, but still himself. It's
all good. --- He left as a Pv2 and became a PFC....and now he's a
Specialist. One rank higher than my Dad was during WWII. -- We're all
proud as can be. I just need him home now. I need him to finish up well
and get back here where he can wander in and out of the house doing
things and I can see him and chat with him. He's missed.

Our
girl is simply amazing. We graduated her from High School last June and
she did another semester at the Community College before transferring
to Fitchburg State University as a second semester Sophomore. She's
lived on campus and seems to have enjoyed her time there. We actually
are in the beginning of moving her home after what has been, I think, a
successful semester for her. She seems to have enjoyed her classes with
the exception of the ubiquitous Health and Fitness class. (Hated it when
I took it and it seems those experiences don't change from generation
to generation or college to college.) Looking forward to getting her
home. --- She's a real inspiration. She loves what she loves and let me
tell you...it shows. She fifes with a couple groups and seems to enjoy
doing that. She's part of the campus Christian Fellowship and is heading
out to a week-long college retreat in a few weeks. I'm sure she'll love
that. She's quite a writer and has had pieces published this year in
both the Community College and Fitchburg State Literary Magazines. Very,
very proud of her. I know when she posts things on FB that I'm supposed
to ignore it and not comment, but I can't help myself. (Very uncool,
mom, very uncool. But hey...whatever. She'll have forgiven me and love
me when she's 30.) So...this summer I have no idea what she's doing and I
don't know that she has firmed up any plans in particular either. (At
least I haven't heard of any.) Time will tell. Planning is one of those
skills that comes with age and experience with disaster I guess.

We
will graduate son #2 from High School one week from tomorrow. Hard to
believe, but yeah. Wow! (You can see him if you look very hard at this
picture. He was WAY, WAY up in a tower in Switzerland.) He's more than
done with homeschooling. This year he's only done theater and drum "from
home" (which really technically wasn't from home at all). Everything
else has been at the College. He's done fabulously in his classes as
well as being part of the Campus Ambassadors and as part of the Honors
Program. He's been taking private snare drum lessons so that he can
play that in addition to the bass drum. He's also started working
part-time during the school year and worked lots and lots of hours last
summer as a tour guide at church...because it's a site on the Freedom
Trail. Good work ethic on this kid with motivation. --- This summer he's
going to be back there doing that Freedom Trail thing and this fall
he's back to the Community College but this time...with his older
brother. I'm tickled that the 2 of them will be taking some of the same
courses...each pursuing a different type of Engineering degree. His
goal, last I heard, is to finish his AA in Engineering and then transfer
elsewhere to finish it. Good deal. And since he's not yet 18, he'll
still be doing Fife and Drum and Theater next year. Nice to not have
aged out of those yet.

And
Son #3... My sole homeschooling child starting this Autumn. He's
finishing his Freshman year and really has come a long way in the things
that he's struggled with for school. He's my ham. He's out to perform
and make anyone watching smile. He's the one who volunteered to help
with Coffee Hour at church when he was maybe 10 and continues to do it
because he enjoys it. He's in the Fife Sergeant's spot at Fife and Drum
this year. He calls the songs on parade and does the count-off when On
Stand. He looks good and is taking that role very seriously. He
certainly is a change from the past years Fife Sergeant and I think that
he's doing a stellar job with that responsibility and leadership of
that. He's my "people person." We're really proud of him. He's enjoyed
theater this last year, playing Clotun in Shakespeare's Cymbeline and I
know he's eager for this coming year as well. They will be performing
King Lear. Not an insignificant piece. --- And so we move into his
Sophomore year. My goal is getting him ready to start at the College
soon. Not rushing, but watching for when it's time. He's almost there.

And
the husband? Well, he's employed and out the door at the crack of dawn
each day, before I ever have my eyes open. He's home often 13 hrs later.
--- Employment is good. The hours are long. It is what it is. We sort
of see one another at night. Sometimes when he comes in I'm still
working or am back at work after taking a little time to cook or
something. --- He fifes sometimes. I think his mid-life crisis is
Colonial Clothing. Not bad and not as pricey as a sports car. I can live
with this. His big 5-0 is in a week. What's in a number? Nuthin! He's
still the handsome, smart guy I married.--- He enjoys sharing TV/Movie
trends with the kids. They aren't always (or even usually) my choice,
but it's stuff that they can all enjoy. Buffy the Vampire Slayer
wouldn't have been my pick, but they've made it all the way through that
and they are almost done with Angel. --- And now the boys have
inDOCTORinated him into Dr. Who, so it never ends. (I have days-weeks?-
months?- when I really wish I could accidentally break the TV.)--- But
they enjoy it? Oh wait! I mean "THEY ENJOY IT! Hurray!"

And
what about life in general? Things are moving along. Work, schooling,
the kids, work, keeping up with as much as I can. Not exactly exciting
and not exactly boring. Well, actually, some things have been exciting.
I've been to a few theater shows in New York! (a first and a second)
over the last 2 years. The husband took me to see Follies by Sondheim in
January of 2012. What an amazing show! Bernadette Peters!--- and last
month a dear friend got tickets for us to go see "I'll Eat You Last!"
with Bette Midler. A great show with a fabulous actress! (Imagine a
one-woman show... 90 minutes, no intermissions, no set changes and no
blocking! OMG!)---

There
have been other neat high points. Three of the kids and I (and several
other Fife and Drum kids and parents) went to Switzerland last summer
for the International Muster and events in Basel and Leistal. Wonderful
trip. My favorite part, aside from watching the kids play for an
audience of thousands and getting a fabulous ovation, was sitting on the
banks of the Rhine with my feet in the water and visiting with other
parents and F&D spouses and instructors. Man that water was green
and gosh was it cold...but it was simply lovely and relaxing. Relaxing
doesn't enter my vocabulary often, really, but that experience was.
Switzerland is a "do-over" if I ever have a chance.
Anyway... I'm back. There's lots more to tell about and share, so I'll be writing again soon... and hopefully get everything all caught up. Thanks for listening.