And I hope, by Thy good pleasure,
Safely to arrive at home."- Come Thou Fount
"As a reminder of the great victory God gave to Israel, Samuel took a great stone and raised it as a memorial between Mizpeh and Shen. As he raised it he called the name of it Ebenezer [or stone of help], saying, Hitherto hath the LORD helped us (1 Samuel 7:12). Whenever the Israelites looked at the stone, they would remember how God had helped them" - House to House/Heart to Heart
It seems that every spring I try again to write more and come to this page and share something, even though it's quite likely that few read it. I think maybe it's because I'm trying to leave something behind when I go. They say, after all, that what goes out on the web will stay there forever, whether you want it to or not. But perhaps this page is a small part of something else. Something bigger.
I came to this page this afternoon because of this new computer, but since I have time and am not compelled to "work" perhaps I'm here because it's time to start putting some things down. I was endeavoring to make sure that all my programs were brought over to this machine before the inevitable day when the Dell goes back to the company and my
As IF closed 3+ months ago, we were given rocks to write on...what we were committing to in an effort to be more "with" Christ. I handed back my first rock because it was too small, and took this one with the hole because it spoke to what I felt. So I wrote:
Move On...
Get Started.
Fill the Gaps. The kids are just about done with me as a homeschooling mom. They are big. I'm not saying my job is over, but really, most of it is. So. What now? What are the holes in me? The holes where He should be. The holes that His purpose in my life...for the next few decades or whatever is left...should fill. Note the hole in the rock.
Move on. It's time to step away from the safe and same'ol...and move on to the big things that are next. The things that matter. The things that aren't about making money for someone else or simply amusing myself. Time to stop staying where it's comfortable and see what God has in store.
Get Started. What am I waiting for? How much of His plan can I accomplish if I give all my time to other endeavors? Time to get a move-on. Stop waiting. Get started.
And then I put the rock on my desk. And that rock of help sat there. But God wasn't going to let me off that easily. He's been louder lately and He's been making things happen so that I am uncomfortable enough start moving. I'm not saying it's not scary. It's very, very scary.
More to come soon. Please, pray for me, because I want to be singing when the evening comes.
"The sun comes up, it's a new day dawning
It's time to sing Your song again
Whatever may pass, and whatever lies before me
Let me be singing when the evening comes."
-Redman
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